entry 11

damn it!

im fucking bored! im fucking pissed and i have no idea why!!
however, im also depressed and i do know why...

pineapple doesnt call me as much anymore! its always with peanut brittle! sometimes we would call LONG hours without even worrying that our parents will scold us... but noo... god damn it! pineapple is already taking that risk with peanut brittle! the longest we've talked so far in days is an hour! a godforsaken hour! we used to talk for 2-4 hours!! gar! this issue with peanut brittle SUPPOSEDLY subsided weeks ago... but this GODFORSAKEN jealousy that i have is just overtaking the fuck out of me!! WHAT THE FUCK SHIT!!!! its also one of the reasons why im pissed actually, and another reason why is coz my internet is fucked up!! >.< damn it! gar! why am i soooo jealous of peanut brittle? i very well know now that she doesnt have a crush on pineapple... but still!!! shit! i feel sooo bad talking like this about peanut brittle coz its sort of like backstabing her! but i just feel soooo PISSED so god for fuckingly pissed!

but i love being pissed and depressed ^-^ its better than feeling TOO overly joyfull and not feeling anything at all...

damn it... i just typed this coz im also overly bored to death! >.<
i want pineapple to know...

that i do like... um... err... it...

though ive kept this crush for round 2 years now...

geeez...

*cries* also.. hardly anyone is available on the phone...

pineapple got scolded...

drea is not around. not even monsoon. peanut brittle is busy.

and i sure-as-hell dont want to call ball buggy right now! >.< coz it would be toooooooo desperate of me...

oh, what the hell...

before i burst into flames and die...

I SHALL HAVE THIS
PHONECALL!

and proclaim my death!
weeee!! i hope i die tonight! ^_^