entry 13
its sooo saddening.
this is soo pathetic of me.
i keep hoping for something that will never happen.
why is it that this feeling that's similar to love is very confusing?
i mean, i like this person... however, i keep hoping that he too will likewise return the feeling. but no, i cant accept the reality that he likes someone else.. the question "why her and not me?" always enters my head! its soo sad! i also found out that he's going to be admitting his admiration at the end of the school year, coz he believes that if you like someone, they have the right to know it. i cant stop him, i shouldnt stop him, but i just dont want him telling her without him knowing that i like him! that there's someone right infront of him dying to admit this long term admiration!
sigh... two years... its almost two years since i realized that i liked him... i was always afraid of his reaction... afterall, i am his friend, but im that type of person that will always remain as just a friend to people... even as im with him you can NEVER tell that i liked him... sure, people would "think"... but HELLO! everyone hangs out with their friends, what kind of sicko are you to be pairing your friends up? [my sicko friends thats for sure...]
gah! damn this feeling! so much in my head...
even this issue with my brother is getting worse. we fought early this afternoon coz he took my cel without my permission. i know, its "mababaw" but i just dont like him! to hell with it. let him punch me, at least during our fight he finally admitted that he didnt like me either... haha! it finally took him long enough...
he told me that coz of me, he went to the rehab last year... LIKE HELL I WAS THE REASON!!!! hahaha! thats a laugh! the reason for his outbursts was him damn addiction... i was just the reason why my dad called up the rehab on that day we fought. serves him right! beh!!
sigh... i dont care anymore...
this pineapple thing is just getting to my head again... gar...
i envy this friend of mine... she was able to tell her crush that she liked him so that she could move on... lucky her... her crush encouraged her to move on... ^-^ im just happy for her ^-^
when will i be able to do that... only time will tell ^-^
this is soo pathetic of me.
i keep hoping for something that will never happen.
why is it that this feeling that's similar to love is very confusing?
i mean, i like this person... however, i keep hoping that he too will likewise return the feeling. but no, i cant accept the reality that he likes someone else.. the question "why her and not me?" always enters my head! its soo sad! i also found out that he's going to be admitting his admiration at the end of the school year, coz he believes that if you like someone, they have the right to know it. i cant stop him, i shouldnt stop him, but i just dont want him telling her without him knowing that i like him! that there's someone right infront of him dying to admit this long term admiration!
sigh... two years... its almost two years since i realized that i liked him... i was always afraid of his reaction... afterall, i am his friend, but im that type of person that will always remain as just a friend to people... even as im with him you can NEVER tell that i liked him... sure, people would "think"... but HELLO! everyone hangs out with their friends, what kind of sicko are you to be pairing your friends up? [my sicko friends thats for sure...]
gah! damn this feeling! so much in my head...
even this issue with my brother is getting worse. we fought early this afternoon coz he took my cel without my permission. i know, its "mababaw" but i just dont like him! to hell with it. let him punch me, at least during our fight he finally admitted that he didnt like me either... haha! it finally took him long enough...
he told me that coz of me, he went to the rehab last year... LIKE HELL I WAS THE REASON!!!! hahaha! thats a laugh! the reason for his outbursts was him damn addiction... i was just the reason why my dad called up the rehab on that day we fought. serves him right! beh!!
sigh... i dont care anymore...
this pineapple thing is just getting to my head again... gar...
i envy this friend of mine... she was able to tell her crush that she liked him so that she could move on... lucky her... her crush encouraged her to move on... ^-^ im just happy for her ^-^
when will i be able to do that... only time will tell ^-^
posted by: moi @ 1:40 AM
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