Confused Fatality

"I feel an empty space within me that's pounding. The agonizing beat that keeps going and going, calling out your name as seconds pass"

fudge.
what in the world is wrong with me? i spent practically the whole MORNING studying for a bio quiz that i sure as hell would fail! >.<... heck, i had a hard time with THAT one. darn those quizes, it's SOOOO easy to memorize when studying yet i keep forgetting one crucial part of quizes in biology... the analization!! fridge popsicle! gwarg!
and plus, i skipped practically the whole recess with my friends so i could review... TAMA BA YUN? [actually, its okay... BUT STILL!] darn it!

crap... i dont know why i feel like such a loner when im with my group of friends. i feel like im not welcome, like there's something they all know that i am not aware of, like they're bonding and im not included.... that's what i get when i purposely shun them away from me... >.>... yeah yeah. i'll admit that lately i have urges to stay away from them... too walk all over the campus alone or to sit somewhere where there's no noise/blabbering of sort... but there was a consequence to this selfish act:
there's someone out there who i dont "talk" to anymore. not that i purposely do that... it's just that we dont really talk anymore [gets?...>.>... i dont think so]... we used to have these funny conversations that take up all of our time to do anything not even homework, internet or TV... and sometimes not even sleep O.O]. but... now... we cant even have a straight conversation... I MEAN FOR HEAVEN'S SAKE! i even know more about dichie's fucking uninteresting pathetic love life than i know of this friend!! crap... i just miss that friend that's all... >.>... O.O... oh wells...

woot it's our retreat tomorrow! woot! sigh... basta! ewan! >.<