im not okay damn it...

This day sucked like hell... not only do I know that i ULTIMATELY FAILED THE STATISTICS QUIZ [godforfucking bid you can not deny that a person who couldnt figure out the mean of a particular set of numbers is not UTTERLY idiotic *arrows and signs flashing and pointing to yours truly*] god... GAR! this is what i get when i underestimate. God... and i feel that I ALSO FAILED THE BIOLOGY QUIZ!!! GOD IM SOOOO UTTERLY STUPID!!!! *the stat quiz made me cry :D... pero biro mo... if you failed something so UTTERLY easy because you overanalyzed the fucking thing how else would you react??!!!!!!!!!!!* to my classmates that are reading this i am refering to items a,b and c... ^^[medyo easy dba? but NOOOO!!! i had to fucking overanalyze AND HAD A BLOCK OUT(sp?)AS IN I FORGOT!!!! ITS SOO SIMPLE AND I STILL FORGOT!!! GOD IM SO FUCKING STUPID] whatelse sucked about this day? .... actually... thats the ONLY bad thing that happened on this day ^^ i just got SO UTTERLY PISSED with myself that i got it WRONG WRONG WRONG WRONG WRONG!!!! [arte ko no???] but stiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiL why wasnt I able to figure it out???
*bonks head numerous times.... gets cutter and slices wrist... [JOKE!!!!]*

anyways... i miss vacation T___T... i miss those days when i could stop and read a book. go to the net without having to do research... actually SLEEP... i dont even have time for my friends outside the classroom coz im either studying for the next subject or answering a homework i didnt do at home coz i droped dead when i got home the following morning, during lunch i do my library services for community service in CL, and i also go during dismisal [i barely even talk with them on the phone...sadness] T____________T...

HOLY SHIT!!!! I NEVER REALIZED THAT IM ON NARCOTICS AND STIMULANTS!!!! WOOOOOT!!!!
i wonder if i have any symptoms of overdose *grins*
[paracetamol, ibruprofen[sp?], and coffee :D]

14 weeks before school ends.... why oh why??T____T...

Geez.. im hard up with all my subjects... MY LEARNING CAPACITY HAS DECREASED!!! i now proclaim [actually i always have proclaimed] myself FUCKING STUPID