Melancholy

thoughts have been brewing in my head...

BTW... i watched HP4 again [is happy.. ^^... i <3 fred and george] but despite that fact...

my head's been in the clouds [again] i cant think straight... and it's been a while since i've pondered about such... oh wells...

i figured out that there's something I cant get over... [excluding kicking the habit of watching TV]... It's just I cant get it out of my head since last night... gah! im soo malabo! i cant make up my mind!! I've been so much things emotionally this year to the point that i cant hendle it any longer! this friggin sucks! I cant make up my mind! I decided to change somthing unwillingly to save something i almost stubbornly lost and now i want it back??!! hell no!! gah! i have to change... i have to get away... i need to clear my head...

"The Phantom of the opera is there inside my mind".. lol!! i couldnt resist!! :)) bwahaha!

shit. we've been through a lot this year. I'm trying too hard to change and get over them too... yeah... im still hung over some things... I somewhat blame the change from that day... when I found out about Nicole to be more specific. I still dont know how this year could've gone if she were still here... prolly be more fun ^^ however... i dunno... just minor changes. *shit!! love songs are playing in the radio... torrette torette sayoo!!* anyways... but ever since then i look at death a bit more differently... even the smallest things affect me in a way... for instance:
1.) when I found out about Eddie Guerrero... T___T [but i didnt cry mind you!!!]
2.) when Cedric died... [not really… but... i think EVERYONE felt that... LOL!]
3.) just random people dying...
I'm soo shallow that when I found out about Eddie I felt sooo melancholy the whole day[though no one noticed. thank god]... gah!!! what's wrong with me????!!!

... NICOLE!!!! you owe me a grappling match!!! I swear I'll murder you when I meet you wherever you are!!!

must put on a happy face! :D...

RANDOM QOUTES:

"When we are apart my heart beats only for youuuuuuuuu!!!" =sung by the weasley twins when they were teasing Ron about Krum... LOL

"Bumbling Bubbling Band of Baboons!" said by McGonagall turned into a tongue twister by the twins <3 <3 <3 <3 <3...