Looking forward to something i'm not looking forward to

I'm doing too much and I'm thinking too much. This results to a very complicated being called "stressed k-chan". Now, when do we know when this complicated being reaches that certain point wherein she delares itself as "stressed"? Here's how

1. In the morning she's crazy and full of energy. But at the end of the day, she's ready to shoot someone who crosses her path.(specially at night)
2. She starts isolating herself.
3. She starts thinking negatively.
4. She talks about nothing but school. Meaning: SHE HAS NO SOCIAL LIFE.
5. She starts failing her seatworks/quizes.
6. She curses more than usual.
7. Only numbers make sense.
8. She blogs all her complaints coz she doesnt like it when she has negative conversations with people.

Okay, I can only think of 8. T_T

Anyway. All of those mentioned above have been happening so-far. Well, with disregard to no. 2(not yet at least).

Hay, this has been my only idiotic private moment coz there's no noise (despite the so-called music my bro listens to.. w/c i refer to as crap) and im not worrying about anything right now. I'm just reminiscing my crappy crappy crappy day.

*sigh* I think life would be easier if I werent thinking of.... nvm.

I feel empty, and very... ugh... inferior.

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When the world starts to not make sense
I keep it to myself
Though I beg to want to scream
What's the point if you dont want to be heard
And even as the tears build up
Nothing will come out
And even if I want to end this pain
I can think of only one reason not to

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I dont regret the things that I decided to do.
I brought this upon myself and I will stick through it.

kaya ko toh!

...guys. kita kits nlng sa budega XP *lol* (inside joke)