School's Back

The first day of school was sort of fun. Haha! My throat hurt from all of the screaming. In most first days of school I dont scream my throat to soarness, but this was different. My bro chipped in with the realization before I got down from my car. He said "Today is your last first day in St. Paul" so I had to make it a bit memorable.

First on to the positive aspect of the first few days.

I got to see my friends again!! Woooooooot!!! The first person I saw was Carmelli, that's when I decided to just be hyper and whatever. And when I saw Kato, that's when I bursted out. Haha!!!! It's been a while to see the trio (D-R-K). So, it was a great feeling to see them again :).

My set of teachers are cool too :). Even if most arent well known.

And for the past few days, for " The Long Table" it's like third year all over again. Only that it's more cramped. At first we were by rooms 4 and 5, but then the peeps from rooms 1-3 found a more convenient meeting place (for them)... So now Laurie, Angel and I (The trio from the other side... as we have coined ourselves to be. Or better yet the HP people... [long story]) have to travel to a great distance to meet with our fellow comrades! (lol.) But it's so faaaaaaaaar. TT___TT Oh wells, it's either that or suffer the utter loneliness in that gawdforfucking classroom.

The past few days outside the classroom has been literally gutt-wrenching laughter. XDD I even got to see both Achie (today) and Taki (yesterday). Haha!

:)

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On to what my heart yearns to blurt before it explodes.
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Though I yearned for a room change, I decided to give my classmates a chance :). And it wasnt that bad. But hours went by and I started to get a bit hot headed from my noisy classmates. I couldnt take the feeling that I'd be stuck with some certain people.

Dont get me wrong, I like my seat mates. They're nice :). But... I just imagined myself throughout this year. And shit... I just feel so freaking lonely in that classroom.

I'm not alone though. A classmate and I feel the same. I WANT THREE-THREE BACK DEMMIT!!!

And what ticks me off is that when I asked for the stupid room change, my adviser told me that it wasnt possible. And later I find out from Cor and Christine that they had students just suddenly transfer to their rooms.

DO YOU KNOW HOW PISSED OFF I WAS WHEN I HEARD THAT??!!! IT'S UNFAIR!!! IT'S FUCKED UP!!! GODFUCKINGDAMNIT!!!!

I'm sorry. I havent blogged at all and I havent properly vented my anger out. Also, the last thing that happened before I left the classroom is a talk on how much a friend and I missed 3-3... It didnt help at all in my situation. Because, I really want to accept that I have to suck it up for the next 9 months.

All I can do now is just try my best to take it all in. Shit... I feel so emo. hahahaha! Maybe it's 'cause two people constantly go to me with somewhat the same problem as I do.

But still... seriously. I want out. NOW.

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*calms down*
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Toy Con!! Chess thing!! Boy... something to get this crap out of my system. I'd even happily do my El Fili (which has been happening during the dull periods) rather than do my part as Temp. Discipline Chair and quiet my damn classmates.

I just want to go through this year without drama. So, hopefully, this will end HERE AND NOW!!!

I'll get through the fact that I dont fancy my class. I'll just face the music :).

All I have to do is wait for break times to come, hope for VERY FEW group/class presentations, and that I can transfer classrooms during the field trip. (WEH!! ASA PA AKO!!!)

So... PLEASE PRAY THAT I GET INTO FRENCH!!!!
It's the only thing that will save me from this Godforsaken Nightmare!!! I've been wanting to learn French since freshmen year. YOU HEAR ME??? FRESHMEN YEAR!!! please Lord. Dont make me suffer for this ENTIRE year.

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There's only one thing I miss about summer.......
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Anyways. I there's more I have to say but I don't know how to say it, so I'll leave things for whenever I feel like writting an entry ;P.