Random Shallowness...

[It's long... and there's cursing involved... what's new??]

All I want to do is curse all night for being so fucking careless...

GAH!!

It's one thing to lose something that you can replace in a jiffy... It's another to loose something that you have to have 2-3 days to re-do. And with the utterly hectic schedule... maybe even WEEKS!!

Gawd freaking demmit!!!

I don't think anything in this godforsaken world can make me feel better tonight.

*glances to the right and sees the T.V. and pokemon is on*

crap. Damn my inner child... XP

Sigh... okay. I'm a bit better now. But it may not last long. BLAH!! gawddemmit!!!

I NEVER enjoy losing things!!! It always makes me upset!!! Now... I have SOOOOOOOOOOO much to re-copy and SOOOOOOOOOOOOOO much to replace.

Billie... for heaven's sake. GO ONLINE!!!

...for those unaware of the reason of my ranting.... I left my filecase at school last tuesday. And for all of the godforsaken days to have no classes... it was Wednesday... and more so another day of no classes last thursday. So, imagine where in the world a filecase and an envelope can linger...

Now, I know it's shallow... But I can NEVER work properly under these circumstances.

GAAAAAAAAH!! so many important things in that filecase. I CAN'T STAND THE THOUGHT!!!!!! and and and... CRAP!!! all the Pauliworld Applicant's drawings are in that envelope!!!!

I SHOULDN'T LOSE HOPE!!... but... IT'S FRIDAY!!! HOW CAN I GO AROUND THE SCHOOL ON A SATURDAY???? ....I even have practice tomorrow *sniff*... My fingers will be throbbing for all those hours. But it pays rather than standing around being asked to sing. ;P But then again, I still have to help out with the voicing @___@. My throat hurts from helping Melody stay in tune XP...

note to self: when working hard... eat something, or risk fainting...

DEMMIT!!! If it werent for all the godforsaken things that I had to do today I would be drenched in sweat trying to go all over the entire school just to look for it!!!!!!!

WHY DID I HAVE TO BE SO FREAKING STUPID???

WHY??? WHY??? WHY???!!!!!!!!!

okay... I give... I'm so effing SICK and so DAMN TIRED of keeping things in.... GAH!!! So.. I'll vent out EVERYTHING!! [or at least those that I'm going to "allow" myself to vent out in public]

It makes me so ILL that I can't stay in school without thinking that some gawdforsaking person out there thinks that she's the whole fucking center of attention!! GAAAAAAH!! I UTTERLY FUCKING DESPISE THAT SHE CAN'T GET OVER SOME SMALL FUCKING THING THAT SHE HAS NOOOOOOOO FUCKING BUSINESS WITH!!! WHY DOES SHE HAVE TO BE A FUCKING PISSY AND BE ALL BITCHY WHEN SHE DOESNT NEED TO BE??? CAN'T SHE JUST TRIP ONE DAY WHILE WALKING AND LAND HER IRRITATING GLARING FACE INTO A GINORMOUS PILE OF RAT DUNG???! SERIOUSLY!!!! If it wouldn't create so much tension within the fucking year I would've strangled your little fucking neck, grappled you to the floor until you fucking snap!!! I really don't get it and I don't bother on it too...

I hate the pressure right now too... I mean... GAH... I think that I volunteered myself into too many responsibilities for this year @____@. Someone make me a hat with the word "stupid" on it.

Will I be crazy to ask Mrs. Venida if I'll be doing the Math Project on my own??

...I dont have to ask do I??

Now... this has come to be a VERY nonesensical blog entry seeing as I don't feel as much utter despise for the world and myself anymore. hahahahaha!!

Blogging is really therapeutic ;P. hehehehe ^^

So people... remember... that when you're upset... just remember that some people are having it worse than you are.... Though, I'm not referring to myself. I mean, people who are having it worse in general. Basta... remember that there's always something good in your life no matter how upset you can be :).

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Can't... handle it... anymore *dies*
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But I have to admit... I'm still being a tad bit more moody emo even after all this