It aint pretty....

[stress. rant. complaints. blah TT_____TT]

Godforbid. The start of the year and I'm already lagging in so many things.

THESIS is a nightmare. I've been taking care of it everyday since last sunday. I've been seeing our thesis adviser since monday @___@. And I still havent given those stupid letters to the DepEd personnel.... I don't want to freak out.

Hopefully something good will come out of this.

Now, knowing that I've been working hard (more than usual), it seems that not even at home do I still get a freaking break from stress.

I usually get home to open the PC to discuss something or whatever for the Thesis. My mom here keeps bitching on how she hasn't seen my study for the fucking ACET. Then she goes on and bickers about how I "WONT PASS THE ACET IF YOU DONT REVIEW!!" and that I "SHOULD GO INTO UAAP INSTEAD BECAUSE AT LEAST YOU'RE SURE YOU'RE IN ACCOUNTING!!".

I'm just tired mahn... Physically, mentally and emotionally.

I mean, I'm busting my ass off for grades I don't and won't normally care about. I'm constantly tired walking all over the school: from the GS to the HS every day just to check if our TA has checked the revisions I've done. I do most of the errands for our group projects and now hating going to National for once. *gasp!*

And even with all of that in my head, I know I have a WEEK before the ACET. But I just haven't had the time of day to even open my reviewers and browse through past lessons. I go home, work, sleep. Finished.

Then you have the bitch here nagging behind me. Mocking that I won't pass Ateneo... the school that I've been dreaming of going to since I set foot in it. Apparently she thinks that I suck. She still thinks I dont care about my studies despite that I've lost sleep over them constantly, even when my dad even gets mad at me for working too hard, even when my grades have shot up WAY higher than before... she still thinks that I'm fucking incompetent!!

No wonder my he went crazy...

and TIME. Gawd, TIME is ticking VERY VERY VERY fast and I don't have much of it anymore. Barely even had time to eat aside from today where I begged for food from numerous people and celebrated my dad's birthday.... It's been my first REAL meal since last saturday before I got sick @___@. Barely had time to talk to the gang much. I've mostly been in contact with my classmates, even with their personal lives. Barely have time for other things too TT____TT...

...At least the good thing about time is that things come by quicker. *hears Canon playing in the bg*

I'm wasting time now. Have to rest. Stupid "fair".

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