Eating Me Apart

Dont even bother to understand

All this time I wait for the sixth
And reminisce before, the passed on days
The taste of your lips are defined
Of poetry and song
Your life has defined mine
Your music shaped my soul.

Nights passed and moments gone
Though sleepless I managed
To move from a crazed fantasy
Then another song grasped my attention
A new life sprung from beneath
And captured was I to plunge to curiosity

I danced with death once again
Through the trap doors of the opera house
He lead new steps that brought tears to on lookers
He stole my last breath and gave me everything
My present and all I hold dear

That new life has captured my attention
That life that brought death for me to meet
The passed days are past and all
But the present is all what I worry

Ah damned be my soul
Though the taste still taint my lips
My path has split and I've become lost
Lost between past and present
Baffled to where my journey leads
The dance from death haunts me to my present
and the lives that defined me to my very fears

I crave for salvation from myself
I long to find rest from my inner demons
And after the sixths I stay disappointed
My efforts are tossed to the 3rd of this life
I gave it up to join with death
To recieve the embrace in sheer discretion

I search for the answer to your question
That damning problem that troubles the rest of my world
When will you answer to your demons?
When will you give us peace?

And though this dazzling feat has aroused many
I remain silent for a cause
I must continue to care
For all that awaits is nothing more
Than the empty page of an absurd journal
Of the masked murderer of a damning investigation

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I know that what I've written doesnt make much sense. If it did, then bravo for you.

I just had this realization that lead me to write the nonesense you see up there... a mixture of passion, self-pitty, past and present realizations, anger... blah.

The second to the last stanza stands out, and it's supposed to. It holds a whole different issue... and that is what my poem is... a bunch of issues.

I know it's confusing, but that's what I am right now—confused.

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I love saturdays! Though it's a big pain in the head, I find it really cool ^_^.

Alam ko na kung ano yung sugpo at talaba!!! 'sus Maria naman kayo oh, tinatagalog pa kasi eh!! Kailangan niyo pa ba akong pagtripan ulit!! nyah! Ang sama niyo talaga!! BULLY!!

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omg! V for Vendetta is soo cool! I wish I watched it in the cinema. I bet it would've been nicer to watch it there T_T.

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Nako! Stress week!!! ARGH!! and too bad my itinerary is going haywire coz all it says is SLEEP while all my post-its keep saying STUDY!!... gah"!!... fuck it. *glares*

I told you Karma was going to bite me in the ass.