Exams O.o.....TT_TT

Random Thoughts of the day...

It's funny how people can be so naive.
I cant exactly exclude myself from that category actually. Maybe you can consider me to be an idiot too. I cant keep my mouth shut. Screw it. Hate me if you want to. I shouldnt be wasting my time worrying about these pathetic paranoia thoughts.

Okay mehn. Exams tomorrow and apparently i found myself being concerned about getting my YM in this laptop rather than diving in the books.

Apparently it'll take an hour before the YM even loads completely. Sigh. Oh well, at least I have an excuse! ... I need to find the lyrics of the English jinggle ^_^ (weh!)

Damn. I wish I get my DSL soon. I'm going to go crazy when it'll come to doing my research (I-cards are too slow!! TT__TT). Unless I'll be desperate enough to spend 200 Pesos for 5 hours on the internet. TT__TT... hmmmm... maybe. XP


These thoughts prevent me from going to sleep. All I think about all day is the same thing and without knowing why.

According to my older bro he has this problem too. Chronic Disturbance I think. I wonder if I have that as well. Because I can sure tell you... I'm very disturbed. (no... not in that particular way *glares*)


Even in the day, it chooses to follow me wherever I go.

I'm haunted, petrified.

I wonder if it'll ever go away.

...life's a hell hole. But at least I have friends like you to make it go away.

*goes off to listen to saccharine smile... and review... (coughyeahrightcough). XD*

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EPAL NA DAGDAG XP
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I'm inspired to make poetry all of a sudden.
Actually it's not really poetry. It's just a bunch of random lines that sound good to me. I just thought I'd share them. ^_^ But take note: these dont apply to me. This is like... due to watching too much TV haha!!!

And there you are sitting down

Oh how I wish I can sit there beside you and talk.

(To you of course)

And for no apparent reason

But knowing me, I'll just sit and wait for the first to approach me

but then I feel eyes staring

and I look up to see you come by

and you've approached

...sat beside me.

I try my best to stay silent

to keep every wavering thought to myself

And as I try to think of not sounding stupid

I end up saying what didnt need to be said

but I'm never embarassed

I have no need to

I dont need to look proper

I dont need to sound smart

I love being myself around you

at the same time I cant

because aside of sounding stupid

I'd rather lay down

cry myself to sleep

pour all my energy and look for help

because this is all too wrong

I want to tell you all

but why should you know

I know that you'll care

but you shouldnt

so by the time you have approached me

these thoughts have ended and I just sounded stupid

and until then my thoughts will keep silent

kept in my mind of continuing solace...